I did manage to meet someone and even got married, was with her for many years but also had many issues during the time. One of them being the fact I'm so bad/nervous around people. While I may have had her and my son I don't have any family or even friends to speak of outside of them.

Loneliness can be a choice but sometimes it seems to be the only choice. For myself it is very hard to meet new people as most I have met in my past have left so I always have that guard up I guess. My ex and I were kind of forced together in a sense and I think that may be part of the reason we lasted so long, not due to our son however. Had that not been the case I believe I wouldn't have had these years with her nor a son to speak of.