i wish i didnt have to get a job but that might be what i have to do. im not in the right mind to keep a job. im not motivated by anything in life right now. what should i do? should i goto DARS anyway? (department of rehabilitative services to find a job? they help people on disability find a job). or should i just keep being like this. i really dont want a job but i have nothing to do all day.

im also afraid of some of my disability getting taken away from me if i get one.

i sometimes wonder if im lazy or if its my illness