It has been a pro-dominate thought of my mind that after I have suffered from psychosis that my socialization skills have been decreased. I have fought hard to change the thought by producing radio shows which are pure talk oriented. No matter how many episodes I produce or the amount of people I ask (if I talk normal), I still feel the same. Still feel disabled when it comes to communication with people. The lack of words and lack of conversation has effected my self esteem and has limited my social involvement for my 25 year old self. It's a personal battle and one that I still haven't reached a conclusion about.

What I feel is that I am different then the prior self and I can accept that. Maybe what I've lost is my social confidence and the ability to just flow freely.