Quote:
Originally Posted by Caelix3
I know that feeling unmotivated and stuff is part of depression. But I feel like something is seriously wrong with me. I've noticed other people with depression are still able to enjoy things they love or used to love. But with me I feel like I only enjoy things for a second, and then I don't feel any joy. Constantly trying to find something because I'm so "bored". I'm not trying to say I'm a special snowflake or whatever but I just don't understand why I feel like this, almost all the time.
My therapist pointed out that I have tried many medications and have seen no results. That I am running out of medication to try, since I have tried almost all of them. I often feel like I am just existing and will never truly feel joy or just happiness again. But what frightens me the most is the fact that I have tried almost all depression medication and none have worked. What if I reach the point where my last resort is to try Electroconvulsive therapy [ECT] and it doesn't work?
Then what will I do? Just be stuck in this never ending cycle of depression for the rest of my life? I am seriously at a loss. Any advice? or comments?  |
Dear Caelix3,
Did you know the emotional numbing is one of the common side-effects of antidepressants?
There is a sort of generic standard "meds + therapy" way to treat depression. You try multiple antidepressants, you try therapy. If that doesn't work, you go to ECT. In my opinion this is a TERRIBLE PLAN that is not likely to help you at all.
My advice is to insist on a reasonable plan from your doctors. It is very natural to just put yourself in the hands of the experts and do whatever they decide is best for you, but, especially in the case of depression, I think that this is a very bad idea. I think you have to stand up for yourself here and you have to be active in looking for ways to get better.
You can get lots of ideas from this forum. Here is what I think is the best plan:
http://forums.psychcentral.com/4262681-post105.html
(you may need a non-tappatalk browser to follow that link).
Here are some notes that may help:
http://egg.bu.edu/~youssef/SNAP_CLUB...0164151576.pdf
Look in the depression success stories section. Look for what has worked for others. Be active.
If you have been told that you have a chemical imbalance in your brain that's causing your depression, that is just not true. There is no known biological signature for depression. It's important to realize that you are not fated by biology to feel this way. You can improve on your own.
GO GET EM Caelix. We're here to help.
- vital