Last few months have been triggering for various reasons.
Lately I feel like staying home and just doing my art. I don't really want to be around people, mostly strangers. I just get too triggered. This causes me a lot of physical pain as well because of my fibromyalgia. I can't tolerate the stress the comes with being around people. I have a part time job in retail, but they cut my hours and the dept I was in was stressful. My manager said the dept was not a "good fit" for me and I agreed, but now I'm not getting hours. this is fine actually because from all the hassle this job has been and the demands of managing the home, I don't care if they ever call me in again.
I really don't want to work but it does help my husband out if I can make a few extra bucks. I should be on disability but I can't get it.
I don't think I'm isolating, I think I'm trying preserve my sanity and my health.
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Of all the things I've lost, I miss my mind the most.
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