You're not alone. You can PM me anytime you want if you need someone to talk to.
I crashed earlier this summer from a hypo episode. It was the worst I've felt in years. I felt like giving up at points. I tried to sleep it off, but I would wake up feeling like s*** and be miserable. I felt alone, but I found some comfort in coming to this forum because I met people who felt the same things I felt and had experiences similar to mine.
It does get better, it's so hard to see right now. The waiting is the hardest part. But definitely know you are not alone in this experience.
Coming out of the depression and looking back at my behavior from the manic episode this summer has me reflecting on life like I never have before. So I guess in that sense I am trying to find myself.
Please take care of yourself and I hope you feel better sooner rather than later.