I don't really have one, and it bothers me more and more as I get older. I never married or had children, have no siblings and no relatives in the UK where I live, apart from my 84 year old mother who lives with me and I care for. I've always wished I had a family and I know I idealise it. I hate Christmas and festivities and gatherings because they always make me feel sad and inadequate. But I'm conscious from reading postings on here and IRL that families aren't always helpful or loving or as wonderful as I dream of.

What are your thoughts and experiences?