I'm an emotional mess, I probably shouldn't be here, but here I go anyways. I remember some of what you posted there. Let me just give it narrower definition to the word 'socialization' for the sake of an argument. Socialization here on PC. I'm with you on that, I'm here to help me grow through the socialization. Many members such as yourself share then I receive, when I get to read them.

Most of the time, I guess I know how to keep an emotional distance, I do okay between fiction and non-fiction. Most of stuff here are from real life. For me, it gets realer when I open my heart, things just sneaks in and hit me hard, and I crumble. This doesn't get me where I wanna go, for this particular moment, I feel that I just go back and back, to where I have to teach myself how to learn things. To learn as I go? Nothing I read here really scars me or anything, they seem to affect me a little harder on me than others though. Is this(what I feel) completely wrong? They are not my experience, yet, on human level, which I see within myself as part of it, I relate. Sometimes not, of course.

I think that I just need to ask my self again, what other ways are there for me to deal with this.. I don't get I.