I haven't really thought about this before.

With my private therapist, I've felt secure from the very first appointment. I know what our relationship is, and there is nothing about it that worries me. It's easy.

I was actually a bit scared of my university therapist/mentor for the first few sessions, because she was a different kind of person altogether. I didn't know how to relate to her at first, and she had such extreme reactions to the things I told her about, which I've never experienced before. I'm so glad I decided to give it a chance, though, because she has helped me so much in just a few months. However, I am still insecure about my relationship with her, because I am really attached to her and that really worries me. I'm scared of messing it up or something, which is irrational, but I can't help it. I guess I just feel vulnerable because of the uneven nature of the relationship, and also partly due to knowing that when I graduate I will lose her. I do feel like we have a connection, though. She is the first person who has ever truly listened to me and made me feel validated, like maybe not everything is my fault. Feeling understood makes all the difference, I think.