I am alone in the world with no prospects. I am an extremely overqualified legal professional, desperately applying for jobs they normally give to the high school children of vice-presidents of the company so they can have some experience in a job (of course they half-*** it because what are you going to say to the VP?). When I can find work, which is all temp, it gives me no hope of stability or a sense of the future and the sense of looming loss colours my every waking day. I have watched all of my colleagues and friends surpass me in every way imaginable.
And I cannot see a way out of this.

And I bet you're thinking "is this where he says he is suicidal", right?

Far from it. The above quote is derived from Walter White, the protagonist turning antagonist of the series Breaking Bad

I wish I had the skills to be evil; paid attention in chemistry, had the slickness to run scams, the focus to do whatever needs to be done. Whatever was needed...

By the time he was my age, Iosif Stalin was the absolute ruler of the USSR. Pol Pot was ruler of Kampuchea, Bonaparte had built and lost an empire while fighting the whole world.

One of my heroes, Joseph Fouche, had risen from a part-time lay teacher to one of the two men Napoleon feared (he died a Duke, after being born a commoner). Another, Arthur Wellesley, had just defeated Napoleon when he was 50 and would go on to a long, successful career as a politician and administrator

I was born in the wrong time, wrong place, with the smarts but no drive, a passive whipping boy who seems destined for smallness