Thank you for all your replies, I am so happy I stumbled across this forum, I like having a place to go knowing they are others that have a experience and can offer advice and what not. I've been on Lithium for about 2 weeks, I still have a hard time with dealing that I have to take medication for the rest of my life. I get sad that this medicine will be controlling my mania, and yes I know there are plenty of downsides to being manic but I still loved the good parts of it. I play guitar and bass, so I just felt way more in touch with my creative side of things while manic. Also another question, how have you dealt with work? I've been out of work for 3 weeks, and going back is going to be a challenge I feel like a completely different person. I work in sales and its high stress I've read it might be an idea to change that. Any advice?