Well I've decided he cares little for my feelings, has made it very apparent in how we live, work, etc. I now firmly believe he is a con artist. My best friend looked up his financial background, something she does for her job, which I had no clue she even did. He has 2 embezzlement convictions 2 different states, and possibly a 3rd (the fine he's paying/not paying). Been Verified only showed one, and when I brought it up to him, I got a sob story. Now if Been Verified had brought up both I would have known better, mistakes can happen, but not the same thing twice. After I tried to live a life with him, I saw his way of handling money, it's criminal really. Yes there were red flags, but that's probably where my mental illness comes in to play. I saw them, but was unable to really understand them. My family did see and understood them fully. But instead of treating me like a rational adult, they opted for the talk down method.

I would listen if they treated me fairly, equally, but even my younger brother acts like a parent to me now. My daughter understood it, they don't respect me. She said I need to earn their respect, in actual terms. Really to me, that respect thing was lost when my brain cracked. It will never return. Well now I'm at mom's I feel centered, and am regaining balance. I did ask her to hospitalize me, she instead took time to talk through my thoughts. It really helped. She's being nicer than she has ever been to me. I told her part of why I stayed with him so long, was because I didn't want involve them, I wanted to figure it out on my own.

He really kept me down and out. I could barely function, I didn't even have my basic needs handled properly.

I contacted the University for help in delivering the divorce petition because I do want it done correctly, without mistakes. I cannot deal with him, his mess, his pretending to love me, anymore.