Yes, people in your past have been horrid.

But you seem to treat NEW people with the belief that they're going to be the same. So they will be - you'll somehow push them away from you. Combine that with the perfectly normal chance that a lot of people just won't be interested, and it will definitely seem overwhelming.

We do listen to you - all the posts in this thread show that they're listening to you. But none of us actually know what goes on in the heads of the people that you're angry with. We can't.

But you keep coming back to people turning away from you because you're fat. Will some people? Yes, some people will. But not EVERYONE which is what you seem to believe happens.

Your earlier post about how you're giving back to others what they give you - and then amplifying it? Well, that definitely has an impact on things. Are you treating new people the way that past people have treated you? Because that's a sure fire way to ensure that they will not want to be friends with you - because no one likes to be treated the way that you have been treated in the past.

It's hard, but each new person deserves a clean slate. Will it likely result in tons of repeated bad situations? Sure will - most of us have a habit of being drawn to the same types of people, which includes people who are either not compatable with us or those who will hurt us. I definitely do that! For the life of me, I can't pick up on it until I'm already in deep enough to be hurt. And then voila, repeat bad scenario! But, I try my best to go into new things giving that person 100% chance. Am I perfect at doing that? Hellllll no, and I've definitely sabotaged potential friendships and relationships from it!