Dear MC,
When you brought up my e-mail (which you kept saying was a text, but it was an e-mail! even if you did read it on your phone!) yesterday, I was expecting you to say that we couldn't really talk about my stuff in our sessions anymore but had to just talk about stuff with H and I. And I was dreading that. So I was surprised when you instead ended up spending the whole session talking about stuff with me (and saying it was OK to do that some in the future, since H is OK with it). When you were asking about why I felt the want/need to e-mail, I think you were right that sometimes it's about reassurance and sometimes just about the desire for a connection with you. But I was kind of scared to admit that to you. I'm pretty sure my tears when you asked that gave my answer for me though...

Also I really appreciate you reassuring me multiple times that you're not saying I can't or shouldn't e-mail/otherwise contact you or that I'm annoying or anything. And when I made mention of the 3 am text a month ago and said I still felt kinda bad about that, you confirmed again that you weren't mad, that nothing I'd ever done has made you angry.

I guess it's just hard for me to understand sometimes how you can be so accepting and so caring toward me. I could really see it in your eyes yesterday. I wish you could always be part of my life...