I admit...I read this post and had no clue what to say... I'm guessing its the same for the 40-ot other people that have looked at it.

All I can think to say is that you need to sort through your feelings and talk to your husband. If you don't you will become resentful and build things up until they explode. Stay away from accusations or insinuations. Be calm, cool and collected, speaking honestly and listen just as earnestly. If he doesn't want to talk or becomes negative, do not let it get you into a tizzy. It takes two to argue and if you remove yourself from the situation, there is no argument.

I wish you the best of luck.
~Seanachai~