I'm sorry you're so discouraged, John Crow. It's not easy being clever.

You said you were born in the wrong time, but there's guarantee things would have been any better for you back then. There was no Netflix in Napoleon's day How did depressed people cope back then?! Although, thinking about it, Napoleon did other things for entertainment, like witnessing Volta's demonstration of voltaic pile. Endlessly entertaining.

Smart people will always be needed, especially in this era of talent shows being passed off as good entertainment.

I think I understand why you want to turn bad. You want to be free, right? And you want to achieve your potential.

I hope you don't mind if I suggest another TV show for you, one which I find quite cathartic to watch. It's an adult cartoon called Rick and Morty. It's about a genius, borderline sociopath scientist (Rick), who's created a portal gun so he can travel across dimensions with his grandson. Rick does whatever he wants, says whatever he wants..It's fully of swearing...and that's why I find it so freeing.

Hang in there, John Crow. Things can and mostly likely will get better.