Morning

had coffee.

i dont think anyone on this forum means to be lazy. i believe its a combination of the meds and the illness. i WANT to do a lot of things but i find im scared to leave the house lately but mostly because of lack of motivation. i am very willing to do things but then i become scared or am fighting my lack of ENERGY to do it. in my mind i just want to conquer everything i can but its so hard. im struggling to do that with school but im still trudging on to complete it and yes i have to work extra hard to find this energy inside me. but with my faith and not so much (disheartening high levels of) medication i believe i can go on with life.