Hi all,
I'm 23 and I've been dealing with fibromyalgia for three years now. This summer I was feeling great, working out 3-4 times a week, and feeling super positive about my health and my future. But something happened in the beginning of September. I decided to get off my hormonal BCP, and about three weeks after I began having the worst insomnia. I barely slept for two straight weeks. I believe it was due to the change in hormones, as well as feeling estranged from my long term boyfriend. My doctor prescribed me ambien, and I went back on my BCP. Ever since the insomnia started, I've had awful memory issues, my fibro is acting up, I am in a constant fog, and I feel very depressed. It's been three weeks since I've been back on the pill, and I'm still having issues sleeping without ambien. I've never had insomnia before, and im terrified of its affects on my fibromyalgia. I feel almost dissociated from myself. I am very sad, discouraged, tired, and just not like myself. I decided to get off the ambien as I feel like it was contributing to my brain fog and memory loss. Im just really scared and I don't know why im feeling so emotionally lost. How do I reconnect with myself and deal with my anxiety about not feeling well?