Welp, I just told him no. Of course. He insisted yesterday that we do it tonight, but we could only do it late, and I'd have to come up with a REALLY good alibi to not totally freak out my mom, who I still live with even when I'm 25 years old, and who is very protective of me.

I literally can never decide whether this is a good idea or not. I'm ALWAYS wrapped in indecision, and it never ends. On one hand, I may have just thrown away a new experience, but on the other hand, I could have deeply regretted feeling "cheapened" by some random casual sex stranger when I'm a strong woman who has lofty career goals- not that men with the same lofty goals aren't sleeping around with any women they feel like...

UGH.

At least now I can never say I'm not a virgin by choice.