I have hit bottom...I am at a place that I have not been in for years. I am a mess and I am no good to myself or to anyone else. I am trying to get a leave of absence from my jobs to get some help for myself...not that it matters...they probably won't give it to me. I cannot even get a sick day until Feb.
Last night I sobbed on the phone with my boyfriend for two hours about how I wish I was gone...and how I cannot do this anymore. This morning I feel so unbelivabely terrible. Emotionally and physically...I feel like I have been hit by a truck..and I have to go to work...
I just don't know....

Jessica