Well I had yet another bad ER visit. I have had this same PA a few times and well he has personal issues with me. This time was the worst he has treated me. He lied in my ER report several times. First he started off by saying I had bizzarre behavior and then I was delusional. Which neither is correct. It was after 10 pm and I was tired and I actually just went to sleep in the ER waiting for him and the results. I was in there over 2 hours. But then the in the report it went on to say that my injury I got 12 weeks ago was in fact self inflicted. Which is completely not true, because I was assaulted 12 weeks ago and had to have surgery for it and was bleeding really bad. He then went on that I had allegedly reported that I was raped. Which actually the reason I was in the ER was because I was not handling the news that the perpetrator really did not get punished at all for what happened. He actually only got one day in jail. And if you have been reading what I have been posting, you would know that is not fair. The ER report went on to say that my wound (which is from the surgery, which had to be reopened and is still open) is still open because of self mutilation. which is also inaccurate because I have been going to wound care everyday and no one ever said anything a bout any of that. Besides I would never do that, nor would I have ever hurt myself like that. I would not have injured myself in that way ever, I would not even have dreamed of such a thing. It was just very difficult because it makes me feel very bad. It makes me feel like it's all my fault, the assault everything. But I know that is not true. But still the feeling is very strong and well it is not a good feeling to have. It is just difficult to have someone, especially a professional, that you are the one who hurt yourself and that you are just lying about what happened. I am very upset over this whole incident. So not only was I upset about what happened in May and the news I found out earlier that day, but I then had to have even more of an upset with this guy thinking that all this was my fault. Am I wrong for feeling the way I do? I really need some help here, I am so hurt.

Jennifer