Hi there,

I've been seeing a psychiatrist for a couple of years now. Together we have uncovered that since I was traumatised at age 8-13, involving my 'absent mother', I have buried the incident and have since had a number of dissociative events in my life; in which I feel completely lost and abandoned, as though I am a child again. Now in my 40s, it is disrupting my life much more, and I find in the mornings that during the evening I have done odd things like 'hidden my phone' or had lengthy online discussions that I have no recollection of. I also tend to take much more medication than I actually document; again no recollection.

But today, the weirdest thing of all, was when during a session with my psych; I actually felt myself 'shape-shifting'; that is taking on the shape of my mother, and feeling like I had turned into her, which was particularly horrifying for me. I was evening answering questions like her. It's horrifying for me, because I am now a mother myself.

I felt like I was stuck in a nightmare; she is the last person that I want to be.

Anyway, I became grounded after that -but to me this was different from 'being absent'; I actually felt that I had turned into the person who had abandoned me a s a child. Has anyone else felt physically different as in they took on a different age/shape all together? I felt like a stranger in my body. That one is new to me.

LB