Thanks Sylver and Angela for the hugs. I can always use hugs from you wonderful people.

Wendy, I guess the suggestions that we have been giving to each other for years is starting to sink in. I tried talking to my husband last night. I did ask him if he loves the sad one. He told me she is harder to deal with then the other one but yes he does love her just as much. Then he kissed me on the forhead. He wouldn't talk about the session beyond that other then to say that he was glad he went. Catherine warned that sometimes after session people will discuss it and go into a blaming mode and she wouldn't want that to happen so he decided that it was important for us to not talk about it.

I called Catherine right before I came here. I left a message telling her that I am trying to connect the dots on what happened yesterday but I don't have all the dots. I told her I decided that instead of trying to make sense of--and consequently distorting--a picture that isn't all there I wanted her to fill me in. I gave her my numbers and where I would be today. I think it will be ok if she calls me at work. My co-workers know that yesterday was the big day and they know how difficult things have been and can be for me.

So I think I can put this on the back burner for a few hours and just do stuff without fussing over it in my head. I had more nightmares last night but fell back asleep quickly after each one so I just remember waking up but not the dreams. This is an improvement. So I am going to go clean out a cupboard. Or maybe pick up pears outside. My pear tree is dropping them at a very fast rate and they get icky fast.

Thanks again my friends,
Carrie