Late diagnose at 43. My Daughter also has Bipolar diagnosed 3 months after me. she was 19.

I spend a few months literally beating myself to death over it. Wondering how much damage I did etc etc etc

My Daughter finally got through to me, Were maybe I lacked here and there.... I made up for it and much more in others. She has no regrets from her childhood.

Step off the guilt train.... it only heads towards a caved in tunnel of depression, regret and self loathing.

Just step off.... how you handle things now is what matters, Sure apologize if you want, But move forward

I was already married when I got my diagnosis. My husband didnt really " sign up" for this Bipolar thing.. But it is what it is, he doesn't hold it against me, Its an illness/ mood disorder, I try and keep Bipolar as small as possible in my marriage. When it needs attention it happens , But my marriage doesn't revolve around my Bipolar. A very wise person gave me that advice way back when .