So I told T at the end of last week's session... about the fantasy of the little girl... the little girl in the frilly white dress, sucking her fingers, who toddles toward T, for a momemnt stands beside where T's sitting, then lays her head in T's lap. T looks down, smiles, carresses the little girl's hair, cheek, back... the little girl just closes her eyes dreamily and takes it in... feels it.
It feels so good, I sobbed as I told T.
Sometimes the little girl wanders in during session and I can't ignore her; she draws me to her. I feel like I have a foot in both worlds..
So, I told T, sometimes when you ask me what it is I'm thinking about, 'where' I am just then.... that's where I am. I'm the little girl.
2 more days til T again.