Hi, I don't post too much these days but I thought I would post-

I've been talking with a girl online- which I've known for about two years or so. We had some time apart here and there where we wouldn't talk. She asked me if I wanted to skype instead of just keeping in touch with the usual forum we would have used aka a social anxiety forum.

So I said okay I would like that.

We've been talkin on there and I thought we really had a thing going so I told her I had feelings for her after awhile because I couldn't hold my emotions back any longer. Sort of a big thing for someone like me being able to come out to a girl telling her of my feelings of her and it turned out better than I would have thought. We continued talking and I guess we could be considered boyfriend and girlfriend. I talked to her about what I could consider her and she said I could consider her my girlfriend so it's not onesided like another girl in the past. (one of my past threads lol)

The relations are pretty fresh really, haven't been too long maybe a couple of weeks now? I'm not sure, I sort of lost track.

It's new to me to really feel like I am with a serious person though. I always have the nagging feeling that she doesn't like me and that she only said okay because she's too nice to say no. I'm afraid to lose her because of my insecurity.

I mean I should just be happy and I am. I am pleased. She's great. I'm lucky to have managed I think.

I just- I have problems I guess since I'm new at this pretty much. I knew we would have quiet days because it was mentioned between the two of us that sometimes it's okay to be quiet and not talk much. Though I guess I can't help but feel insecure when we don't talk much. I don't want to annoy her either though so I guess I should just wait for her to message me.

I hate being so insecure and I guess I physically long for physical touch but we haven't really been together long enough yet to consider flying out to see one another. We made it both clear what we both want and it's the same so.

I hope it works out. I'm afraid I'll mess it up.