I too think religious beliefs had me marry people I never would have. I was molested at 7, puberty I was having sex, until my period started. I abstained, until my first husband date raped me, I was 19, that reopened the closed door. He was a womanizer. I was ill prepared for martiage, not to mention family hated him. But fornication is a sin and I was trying not to be so sinful. Marriage #2, I took his virginity. He wanted me after 3 years and not meeting anyone I really wanted to be with we married, family loved him. I was less than happy. Now 3rd marriage, he's a con. Great I really screwed up there. Now not only am I going to have to figure out a way to get laid, I really can't get married again, he so messed me up.

Something about me screams marriage. I put out and they get attached. Thinking of guys before con man. Blocked a couple daters. One guy I really liked, but he couldn't do anything. Viagra didn't even work for him. Sexual frustration galore. Had to break up.

I really love sex. My mom tells me she's not interested, guys don't pleasure her, etc. I'm living here, her guys are here. I put out a sexual vibe, she's telling me she's not putting out much. Not a line I've crossed, been hit on by a few exs of hers, I told her to lose them, other reasons given, but damn. She is my mom after all, but tmi about size and **** is hard to take sometimes.

I understand the teachings. I do.