SandyWeb,

I heard on the radio yesterday morning about the crash and unfortunately saw some tv news last night and the paper this a.m. Not great things for people with PTSD. I'm now scared to fly out in November after seeing the pictures of that wreck. So please don't think this is unusual to feel as you do. It is totally normal.

For SA111 I wasn't even part of the recovery effort but happened to be in the area the next day so I was surrounded by fishermen who has been first responders and the sadness that enveloped the locals.

The first thing I thought of when I heard about the cargo jet was you. I knew this would retrigger and I worry about how that affects you.

I'm glad to hear you are seeing someone and that it is today.

All my best for your appt. and beyond.

It can be very scary to talk about things that you tucked away to deal with but you're now seeing the effects from that type of coping. I went throught that for years before I sought help for my PTSD.

It takes time and lots of gentle support. I pray that you find that where you are.

I spent yesterday over at the valley look off near Wolfville. Went over to buy apples (did you see what the remnants of tropical storm Nicole did to the orchards over there? toppled tons of trees poor farmers) and squash and potatoes. It was a day of harvest and thank goodness the weather was nice.

I'm sure you remember the differences between west coast and weather here. The month I've been here has been interesting weather to say the least.

I think of you often and continue to hope that you will keep on keepin' on. Honesty is scary but I admire that you admit to being who you were/are and that you're still here.

Take care.