I can understand some of how you feel, as I have moved several times recently and felt a lot of loneliness each time. Recently, I am experiencing loneliness after being kicked out of a volunteer organization where most of my friends were, because I have a mental illness. Loneliness and social anxiety make it hard to function and make kust getting out of bed seem like a chore. I can relate to wanting to stay asleep because of feelings of worthlessness.

Although I know this may not work out, I would strongly suggest trying to find a therapist you can afford. When you feel like you have no one to turn to, and home life itself feels difficult, that's a good sign that a therapist would be a good connection in my experience. There may be free or low cost therapy or supports in your city--have you tried to google or look in to this? I realize you may already have tried, but I would encourage you to keep looking. Just the act of trying to find help can awaken something in yourself.

As far as social anxiety and loneliness goes, I have found friendly, likeminded people on meetup.com and at support groups. Have you found anything like that in your city?