I'm actually amidst the breakup as I type. You may remember my posts and threads of about a month ago where my world was shattered after I found reason to distrust my boyfriend.

Well, whether it is my bipolar acting up, I am jumping to conclusions, or my feelings are founded I once more find myself confused and feeling distrust - and a great amount of hurt. On the one hand this person treated me better than I have ever been in a relationship before. On the other hand he has been incredibly supportive when it comes to my mental health. Yet on the other, I just can't shake the idea he has been engaging in inappropriate relationships.

How can one person behave so incredibly awesome and at the same time have what I believe is a secretive life.

Again it may be all in my head. I don't believe so. But, regardless if it is or isn't my trust is in question. One cannot have a relationship when this exists. It's unfair to both parties.

And so I am making what is the only choice I can in all fairness make. And it's killing me because I really love this person deeply.