I feel you. I've been feeling the same things in life you do, and your piece above hit home with me really deeply. It is a sh--t answer. The people who say it have never felt what it's like to be truly unloved, they've always been loved and the closest they've come is "down days" when their friends get a little tired of them.

You know, I can relate to what you say about failures too. It feels like I fail all the time. I also want to quit most days. But, some days, out of nowhere, I get this fire for a short while, and I envision a scenario of what would happen if I were to die under those circumstances, and then I get extremely angry, because I see how these people who hurt me are going to get away with what they did, I see in a vision/daydream how they will pretend they loved me and how good a person I always was to them and how much they cared about me. At that moment I feel so sick in my stomach and so driven, because I know if I give up, the truth will be hidden and these bastards will get away with it. So, a fire burns in my gut to try something again to finally one day give me the chance to expose them and prove them all wrong, all the people who doubted in me and hated me.

Even if there are 1000 failures that still happen, I figure it's worth try number 1001, because that's the one that will make it all worth while. One success can wipe an entire life of failure, because it all get's justified.

That's what I live for, one moment of glory, one little thing, and it will render all their years and plagues of evil to naught. I know, when I reach that moment, all the rest will just melt away and will have no more power over me ever again, I will be the winner.

So, when I'm down, I just say f--k it, I'm giving it another go. Yes, I fail, I fail a lot, but I know sooner or later a big break must come. When I feel like I want to quit, which happens a lot, I just think to myself again "Am I really going to allow them to write my life story with all their lies?" I picture all those liars standing around my grave talking sh--t, and that's when I think "Screw that!"

I truly hope you can also find a fire in your belly like I do sometimes.

Please don't give up, don't let these people win.