Why is it that my husband is happiest when I'm feeling bad? He's hardly ever said anything nice to me. He shows me no respect. He has asked me over and over how he can say anything nice to or about me unless I want him to lie. I have felt like dirt for so long. I'm so tired of trying to go on. Today he has hardly talked to me. I know that there is another blow up coming. Now he just left to go to the bar. If it wasn't for my kids I wouldn't be here now, but I would never want to put them through that, or leave them alone with their father. I know they need me to be here for them.