I feel really sad that you have a plan and I'm sure the other posters in this thread also feel sad about it! Even though no one knows each other here in real life, your real life experiences and pains are felt and understood here. We just want you to get the help you need because look at what a good person you are to begin with, you want to help others that is a very noble thing to do not everyone is interested in others well being. Imagine how many people you will be able to help if you stay. Your friend will be hurt without you and I know it may be hard to imagine but many of us on this forum will be hurting as well to not have you here with us.