Oh I've had that happen to me before. My pdoc told me at the end of a visit that I need to exercise to help with the depression. No s**t! But if it was that easy, I would be doing it! Anyway, I'm sorry you're struggling. I'm still climbing out of my hole too. It's a horrible feeling, but it will eventually change and I hope it's sooner rather than later for you. The hard part is the waiting when you feel absolutely miserable. You're not alone, take care.