Hugs, because I completely understand. I feel like I annoy mine all the time. I don't email him too frequently, but I always feel bad about the times I do because it's usually what he describes as a "brain dump" when I don't get everything out in session because I'm too tangled in my thoughts or afraid to say it. He keeps saying it's fine that I do that, but encourages me to not leave without discussing something I want to. Otherwise, I feel like I annoy him in general because I feel stuck and like I'm not going anywhere. I actually asked him this week if I'm wasting his time. That led to a really, really good conversation.

My problem is transference, and I'm projecting the fears I have in approaching my father (who is absolutely not approachable and has never been) onto my T. I keep expecting him to get annoyed with me or dismiss my problems, but he never does. He had to reassure me that therapy is there for a reason, and if you're stuck you probably need to be there all the more. He even said "I'm glad you're here" which I think might be the most meaningful thing he's ever said to me.

Do you think your problem might be transference? Do you have this issue with other people in your life? I would 100% bring this up with your T. Sometimes you need to hear--and keep hearing--that you're not annoying them. There's nothing wrong with needing that I know I make up in my head all the time that I'm some kind of burden to everyone around me, so it's nice to be in an environment where discussing that is definitely uncomfortable, but also definitely safe to do so.