I'm having a hard time kicking the sadness I feel about how poorly my relationship with my sister is currently. I just found out a few weeks ago and it is as if I am mourning the loss of her even though she is still very much alive and that there is *some* hope for our relationship to be mended in a few months after we both have more time to think. It's not a heavy sadness more of an underlying sadness that is just there and if I let myself think about it right now it gets worse. I think I just need to get this off my chest and have some time when I don't think about it for awhile because right now it is breaking my heart.