i know exactly how you feel sarah, i have been there before but trust me try again tell her you want to see someone, dont give up after just one try, you need to keep trying because this is your life at risk and you need to let her know that, when i was going throught it and still are i was really scared that she would either make me go to counselling or completely reject me, i too have been re-opening wounds and then they just scar and i re open them and they dont turn out very nice, but again trust me try try again because it may just be the thing that saves your life... just like mine

if you need to just PM or anything

i am here

Milly