Well, I have just escaped to my home. It was noot good. I don't expect it ended well. I was already feeling weak and fragile before the meeting. Anyway two former members showed up and started having it out. I panicked and had to leave. It may very well be still going on.

I experience a great deal of worry over the potential behaviour of others. Maybe it's a paranoia but I am always afraid of the worst. I am careful not to get myself into possibly difficult situations. My heart skips a beat when I fear a confrontation is about to happen. I'm not just talking about confrontations I may get into but I do what I can to avoid confrontations between others.