I'm not feeling great right now. I broke up with my BF this afternoon. That we loved one another was not in question but for reasons I won't delve into trust had come into question. It became apparent that no matter how much he tried to prove he loved me I would always question the trust. Leaving him was something that had to be done.

And it kills me.

Obviously I have a lot of emotions to deal with; but, this has another impact to my life.

The fact of the matter is he was my life. We spent 3 days together each week. Those three days were basically my life. Yes, I have some activities I do each week but the point is that I had grown dependent on him to have a life of activity and reward.

I am now faced with wondering what on earth I shall now do.