I've said it before, I'll say it again... I don't want to die, but I don't want to be here!!

Nothing goes right for me! I try to be postitive and it's all a slap in the face. I find a job that I think is going to be awesome only to find it's worse than the last one. My marriage is in shambles. We're broke! I have no place to hide or run to. My kids are suffering because of it and there's absolutely nothing I can do about it except "be postitive"!! Oh, and no one to talk to! I try to come here and nothing!! I went to chat and it was like I didn't even exist!! I might as well not even be here!

I couldn't be more alone! I have no friends. I'm too old for my job! Why the hell am I still here? Why am I made to suffer like this? What the hell have I done that's so wrong for things to go this badly for me?