I think that most (if not all) of us go though a phase when we aren't sure that whatever hurt us really counts. You know what impact that has had on your life. It's real, and it hurts, and you keep re-victimizing yourself too. We can tell you until we all get blue in the face, but the answers have to come from within. Are you okay? Did you turn out fine? Would you feel okay about treating your own child the way that you were treated? How do you do with managing relationships? Emotions?

I'm sorry if the answers to those questions are a bit brutal. I think that if you are asking the question you asked, you must be getting close to being ready for the answer. Emotional abuse is a negative form of brainwashing, and it can paralyze. It's really hard to heal from, because it is like a worm or a virus that burrows deeper the more you try to get it out. It teaches you that you are not competent enough to understand yourself and your abilities and your own emotions. All of that is a lie though. Really, you are more capable and likeable and loveable and smart and beautiful than anyone has told you, and than you know. You can do what you want to do with your life, and you are worth it.

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