I've realised that I desperately need to talk to someone about the things that have ben going on in my life, and how I've been feeling.

I have borderline personality disorder, possibly PTSD and they're still tossing around a diagnosis of schizophrenia.

Everything is messed up. I'm crying all the tme, thinking about suicide, isolationg myself, and drinking way too much.

I am seeing a T, but I can't stand her, and I think that the feeling is mutual. Changing T's is not an option. I am required by law to see this T every week until June next year. She is extremely condescending and judgemental.

Because of my feelings of late. I think it would be beneficial to find another independant source of support, as I said, I need to talk too someone. My question is, do I seek a counsellor, or because of my mental health, should I find a psychiatrist??? My only concern is that because I am a qualified counsellor, is it going to be ineffective cos I know the 'tricks of the trade'.

Would really appreciate some advice.