I don't think your pdoc will let you go. They're not surprised with untruths or lying. I think it would be different if you were noncompliant, messed up and refusing help. Hopefully together you can come up with a good solution for your meds. If she's smelling depression right around the corner it might be better to take something that is emotionally numbing or blunting than falling down the hole.

I'm sure it's really hard being away from your partner right now. Maybe it's a blessing in disguise if you were triggering him—he has a little time to get his head on straight. I hope you two can talk about what he just went through and figure it out.