Ok, discover, a very important part of your healing and gaining is making sure that when you experience a trigger or PTSD cycle that you do not allow yourself to self blame. And "patience" with self is very important. I had to learn that when I experience a trigger that ends up with me having a bad ptsd cycle that I remind myself that these episodes come up, crest, and pass and to do my best to remember "they actually do pass". I find that often things come forward and I slowly put whatever it is into words. Try to be positive with whatever you accomplish when it comes to verbalizing as trauma is stored in parts of the brain that does not have language. It can take time for all of these areas to get to a point where the language is all there. Allow yourself to do things in small parts/pieces as that is what works best with PTSD.