Yes. This illness sucks. I try to look at it in a positive light, but I've been failing lately. I'm far enough out from my last episode where I can look at my actions from a third person perspective and I'm terrified that's going to happen to me again. And my anxiety has reached an all time high. You should tell that psychiatrist he should exercise. Jeez. I hate it when people tell me to do that! I hope you start feeling better soon.