I surely didn't act maturely, I burst into sobs, ran out, ran back in, refused to look at him and left still sobbing I think I'm just trying to convince myself it was the right thing to do because it feels awful. He gave me a big tight hug 2 days ago, but my mistake was emailing him (which had never been a problem in all our years) with more on feelings I have about wishing he didn't just sit there watching me cry, and why was it okay to hug at the end but not comfort me during the session, and he didn't really acknowledge the email itself just that the tone of it was what made him realize the hugs had to end.

I just wish he had ended them longer ago, seeing as how he said when he hugs it's supposed to be only brief and temporary, instead of waiting until he became uncomfortable. He said that now our relationship will be even stronger because we are being open and honest, but i still feel more like I was steamrolled.