He is a good therapist I think, but he doesn't see my problem in the group. There is no such rule as "try to be kind and respect the others feelings and needs", as far as I remember. He said that it is a constant process that we define the rules new all the time. But I hate it. Some of the participants are constantly complaining that group is too "nice" and everyone is being too friendly to each other and that there isn't more conflict. I hate conflict! I am a sensitive person and I tend to shut down when people want to quarrel or be rude or say that they are bored by what the others (including me) want to talk about. (Which one guy frequently says or expresses otherwise). AAArrgh I hate this. And I really do feel intimidated - the two problematic folks are about twice the height as I am, not that any of this has mattered to me before, but when they are sitting next to me I get scared by their attitude and appearance and don't feel like talking about my childhood traumata at all.
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