Yep, I have made my choice. Based on all the evidence and all the "I feel like,... I wish...., "-conversations that I had with him, I felt a little relieved after the breakup and was very hopeful for about two weeks. I did new things, caught up with friends and learned to knit mittens - my version of a hobby-drug. But his constant showing up or calling from private numbers has crushed me somehow. I have a lot of stress at work and university and my energy is just not there. Everything is hard and my vision is black, I just broke down completely after he texted me that I was being "a dragon" and that he hates me. He apologized later, but still since then I feel like somthing inside me broke and I don't know how to repair it. (My group therapy isn't working for me btw - even though I am in professional hands, that doesn't make it easier)
I hope you all are doing better than I am at the moment!