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The symptoms of borderline patients are similar to those for which most
people seek psychiatric help: depression, mood swings, the use and abuse of drugs, alcohol, or food as a means of trying to feel better; obsessions, phobias, feelings of emptiness and loneliness, inability to tolerate being alone.]

This , to me , is a very accurate description of myself. OK. so I know what I am now. The question I have is the relation between past environmental situations , my personality now , and how this mix will affect my life on a daily basis. What can change ? You can't change your DNA. It takes willpower, something I sorely lack , to effect change . I have a very pessimistic view of my ability to " feel " better. It seems like nothing can make me happy. I find life very disinteresting. I can have brief periods of optimism but it doesn't last.
Can anybody identify with what I'm trying to say ?