Thank you so much for caring and your words, but dont worry for me please. My plan is a long term one, so, should i find any reason not to proceed, i'll be able to stop the process.

As for my friend, i have understood its better if i treat her as any other friend, in spite of the deeper conncetion i feel with her. i'll be available if she needs me but i wont run after her to help her at any costs. getting help is her choice, not mine. i can only be there if she decides she wants it from me, independently on how much i care and i think i would be able to help her.... i have shown her i care a lot already... now its up to her what to do with that.
she says she doesnt want to hurt others and be a burden to others, and i told her i prefer to know whats going on with her rather than she disappearing and me being left imagining the worst. is there anything else i can do or say for her?
on the other hand i see she is too focused on herself only, and i dont want to start that kind of dynamic where it all spins around her, no matter how bad she may feel. it is not healthy for her and not healthy for me either. there is need for a minimum of balance even between friends (if we are friends) and even when one is in a bad place like her....

am i making any sense here? any better suggestion?
Thanks